INSPIRATIONS

Marlene Dumas

Joan Eardley

Alice Neel

Tamara Muller

Leiko Ikemura

Roy Batty

I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the darkness at Tan Hauser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time like tears in rain. Time to die.
Blade Runner

Auguste Rodin

“I can only work with a model. The sight of human forms nourishes and comforts me.” - Auguste Rodin

Hieronymus Bosch

I have started new paintings, and looking for some references and found THIS!! just wanted to share with you.



I wish I could have all of them.

MY HEROS

Kento got a super nice cute camera and experimenting all the time..( pretty cute) and here is one I like..

I am taking antibiotics now....2nd day out of 5 days.
I got a bad cold, I think,,because I have been starting coughing. First I got tonsillitis, bad fever, and swollen inside outside,,and pain, so not able to swallow water...It was the worst. I do not think I have strong immune system。Last weekend was just nightmare. Sena and Kento were so worry and super nice to me..I even thought, infection was so so strong that I was not able to be ok, and so told Kento,,,"if something would happen to me, please take Sena to Yumi (my sister lives in BOSTON),,,", well, yeah I was ok, of course, Kento took me to see a doctor on Monday, but on Sunday, I was scared. ( yet did not want to go to emergency hospital,,I know I know I believed I was ok.....rolling my eyes), you know I am kind of ( kind of ?!) drama queen...ha

It is so cold now, but no heater in my apartment, it is broken.
Sena and I do not like any heaters, since warm air makes our head hurt, so we never liked them, however, since I got this sickness, I finally turned it on, and started using from two days ago, and it was pretty good, even though sometimes it made weird noise, but it did not make our head hurt...( we got a gas heater stuck on the wall,, you know that one,,)
But last night, it made a big bomb noise, so I turned it off! and there were some black burn pieces around that heater...
And so I called landlord first thing in this morning, but,, repairman did not show up...F#$@@%^&*&*(&^%&&!!!!
I called three times to make sure that I would get repair TODAY!!!

Since we moved in this apartment, I needed to get a repairman 3,4 times, and he came right away, when I called landlord.
So I was not worry too much, but somehow this time,,he did not show up. I should not be upset this much, but I need to be in a warm room, because I have a pretty BAD COLD!!!

We are living F(()_!@#$^%^&* Be#$%^ly HI!#@$%$$^ls,,
honestly, there are so so so so so so many BI@#$%%%s and A@#@$%H@!@!#$ here,, I knew it, I knew it!

We may move out,,, I do not know for sure yet, since Sena is a super duper good student at BHHS, and she is so trying to keep super good everyday with crazy amount of homework and tests,,,,
well, I will think a little bit later when I have clear head.

Ok, now I need to tell you why I titled, "MY HEROS",,
Because they are my heros.. real heros.

I have been having pretty bad days recently, and cannot control well my emotion, so I have been Bi(*&^%$H in front of them, so they need to be patient listening my *&&^@@#$#%%! and seeing my !@###$@#$ stuff all the time.
( I haven't even seeing anybody,,cannot kind of. Except sometimes, Chihiro-chan(>__<)....)

Thank you Sena, Kento. Because you are always beside me, taking care of me and protecting me, I have been able to do what I want to do and how I want to be.
I really really wish HAPPINESS to you.
I hope I will be ok soon...

MICHEL GONDRY

Last year February,
I met Michel Gondry, well it was more like I went to see him, and told him how much I love his films, and gave him my animation DVD and my pink bunny bobble head
And he drew Sena and me that time, and I was so happy and excited, and even thought about that him and me would work together in future for serious.

and then, I met AYAKO-chan in Summer 2007, and she told me that she would be leading role in his new movie, "TOKYO"!!
I was so excited and happy for her, and she said to me " I will become best friend of him and we can see each other in LA in near future."

And this year, in Spring ,,She sent me a picture of a shelf which is filled with interesting toys. And I found my pink bobble head inside.....and there was question from her...(can you guess whose shelf is this?)
and I said,,,(it is yours!) ..and she went..(no.. it is Michel's)
OH MY!! MY BOBBLE HEAD IS IN HIS SHELF IN HIS HOME WITH HIM, HIM, HIM......!!!!
can you quess how much I got excited.....?

Last month, Ayako-chan came back from Japan for her jobs, but hopefully we had a lot of time to spend together,
(Sena is a good photographer!)


And she took me to see MICHEL GONDRY's lecture at Hummer museum. Ha~(exhale...) it was just so~ amazing to see and hear his genius thought, and techniques. I hope they will make DVD or something....

Before the lecture,, she introduced me to him, I was super duper nervous, and asked him, if he rememberd me...
But he did not, of course not,,,,but I was getting weird upset, talking to him in Japanese and English, and explaining about bobble head and stuff....And he said..." Oh yeah... I remember... I sent you a mail... right?" and I said "NO~!"
and then said to him, " you need to draw me and then you won't forget this time,,,,since
Ayako is hear to be as a witness"...
Ayako-chan mentioned later,, it was so funny that I looked super scary because I was so nervous...yes right.... look the drawing he drew....

And here are pictures Ayako-chan took,

Look who is in back sheet of MY CAR! muhaha ha ha~.

We went out after the lecture to a restaurant on Sunset Blvd.
and I was (of course) nervous having famous people in my car, and needed to follow Michel's assistant's car,
and here is scary part....
I needed to stop at the signal which was located crazy up hill on La Cienega BLVD.( I am traumatized since i had a bad experience there before),,,and I got super duper mega nervous with sweat, and I made crazy noise with stepping clutch pedal too long time... And made my car really stinky. Yes I burned clutch pedal..Michel said to me, I should not drive stick shift car..ha ha ha.......And of course, when I got there, with super nervous paniced head with scary face, I yelled at Michel's assistant,," why you used the street? it was so so scary..." he went..(nah~~).....
I thought that I could kill them... I am seriously glad I did not kill them.
Hopefully Michel remembers this time.......

Vivienne Westwood

British Artist, who made SEX PISTOLS with Jamie Reid and Malcolm McLaren, and have been leading real punk history and fashion history,
her name is Vivienne Westwood!!!
And finally, I got one of her art work,, it is a super duper cute choker for my neck! Kent got for me in UK. I am so happy (>_<)

I did not have any of her art works (products) since I never be able to afford them, but her visualization has been always super inspiring since I saw her t-shirts in end of 1980s.

I was fashion shops manager to sell imported clothes and toys from US and UK besides Japanese stuff in Nagoya, and most of friends I had that time were working at flag fashion shops, and DJs, punk kids, hip hop kids and reggae kids ... I was reggae DJ too..JAH,
and the first night for sppining my music at a club, I borrowed mickey-t to wear from my friend HIDEO! I borrowed his clothes sometimes when we had parties...he is also in my DJ team. And We Love Punk!
ANYWAY, I finished new painting which I dedicate to Vivienne Westwood. it is an image of my first silkscreen tshirt I made in school.

"LET IT ROCK"